We Broke Up, and It’s Okay.

We broke up. Happy Valentine’s Day! 

No, but seriously.

This post seemed appropriately inappropriate for the week of Valentine’s, especially when we might not all be spending it with that special someone. I wanted to write this post because I have a lot to say about my boyfriend and I breaking up, but none of it involves bashing him or divulging the secrets of our relationship that resulted in our ultimate demise.

The truth is, it was a good breakup.

Secrets: The Silent Suffocating Presence

I’m writing this because I think we too often cloak our breakups in secrecy, as if they are shameful, embarrassing parts of our lives that can never be discussed.

They feel hard, like personal failures, big let downs, and complicated knots that we have to untie one inch at a time. We have to face disappointing people we love, whether mutual friends, your adopted family, or yourself and your future plans.

I don’t think it has to be that way. What if we choose instead to share what we learned so that others may learn as well?

Read “Sex & Secrets: I am Part of the Problem”.


Secrets are toxic. From secrets come assumptions from the outside world, and toxic rumors that result in hurt feelings and dramatics that no one has time for:

I heard she was really crazy.
Wasn’t he was super jealous?
I heard they fought all the time. 
Didn’t he cheat? 

Not talking about it makes it seem so much bigger especially because we don’t talk about good breakups. We don’t talk about happy endings when two people decide that it’s time to move on.

That seems almost incomprehensible to us when we’ve been brainwashed by movies and books and social media feeds that make us believe that we can all have a perfect relationship if we just tried hard enough.

Society paints this lovely picture of what we should want, especially as women.

We should want that house, those cars, those kids, and the husband. The joint bank accounts, the high net-worth, and a closet full of perfectly put together outfits to wear as we go to our jobs that are great– as long as we keep in mind that our real jobs are back home in the kitchen, raising our children and having dinner ready by the time the hubs comes home.

This belief that this is what happiness looks like, and that we are supposed to have this all figured out by the time we’re thirty so that we can start birthing babies, is not only crazy, but it puts so much pressure on everyone as they creep into their late twenties and still haven’t found that person that they want to build a life with.

Pressure, Relationships and Settling

I see it so often, people settling for unfulfilling relationships because the clock’s ticking and they need to find the “one” who is willing to settle with and for them.

We believe that if we haven’t found that person by the time we hit our peak years of fertility, we’re doomed to die alone, choking on the furballs of our six cats.

But what if you don’t want that? What if your version of a fulfilling life doesn’t involve any of that? Can you even be happy without having a romantic soulmate?

Yes. Yes, you can.

Your Happiness Looks Different from My Happiness

You can choose whatever version of happy knocks your socks off and makes you excited about waking up each day.

I am not saying that you cannot be happy in your late twenties with a house, kids, husband and the whole nine yards.

But I am saying that these generalized ideas of what happiness looks like are damaging because my happiness may look a million times different from yours.

And that’s okay.

Fear Often Keeps Us in Bad Relationships

Fear of not achieving what we think we’re supposed to want can keep us in bad relationships.

We don’t want to be seen as failures.

We’ve been shown over and over again one path to happiness, and when it doesn’t look the same as everyone else’s it can be scary and unsafe.

So we settle, we stay, and we hope things will somehow change.

Sometimes admitting defeat is the scariest thing we can do. 

Read “Dating the Wrong Men: Destructive Relationship Patterns to Avoid”.

There are things we don’t want to face. 
There are truths that we try to hide from.

But accepting and embracing and going after the type of life I want to live, means being alone right now. 

It meant breaking up.

I love him. 

That hasn’t and probably won’t ever change. 

But love isn’t enough, even though we’ve been bred to believe that it is. 


Read “What to Do After a Breakup: Relationship Autopsy”

There are lots of people in this world that I love but would never date. The truth of the matter is, he and I were never compatible. We both knew it even when diving headfirst into the relationship in 2017. 

Young Love

We originally broke up back in 2010, but we didn’t have the emotional intelligence as the kids we were to recognize that we weren’t compatible. Instead, when we were 19 and 21, we focused on all the wrongs the other had committed on the other. 

It was a sloppy, dramatic, mean, and hurtful breakup that lasted years as we tried on and off to keep each other in our lives.

When we first got back together, we loved the idea of this perfect relationship that had just been incubating for seven years, and was now ready for us to move into. It was painless immersing ourselves in the comfort of familiarity and the illusion of stability and safety.

Read more about the illusion of stability in the form of familiarity in “Why I Don’t Date Nice Guys”. 

Older and Wiser? Not so much.

This time around, we assumed that with age came better tools and techniques for communicating, dealing with confrontation and working out our issues. While that might be true, our “tools and techniques” were really just band aids for the fact that we were still incompatible.

We kept at it though.  In the name of love and not being quitters.

But as I said before, love is not enough.

Love cannot make up for differing core values.
It cannot replace understanding.
Love cannot stand in for shared beliefs, interests, passions, and priorities.

And that’s totally okay.

The Decision to End on a Good Note

If we had wanted it to end badly this time, we could have focused on all the ways we hurt each other in these last months. 

But those are just symptoms of the disease. 

The truth is, we are just not compatible, and all those micro-offenses were the ways in which the Universe/Source Energy/God/The Head Honcho was trying to show us that this is not the right relationship for us.

I’d rather not focus on the bad stuff.

Not focusing on all that bad stuff and not vilifying each other makes it a whole lot easier to stay friends. Neither of us are bad people, despite doing some pretty shitty things to each other over the last decade. We could choose to hate each other and make it a dramatic, horrible and emotionally draining experience of separating– or!

Or we could chill, and recognize that we were really just trying to put make-up on a pig of a relationship. Still a pig. And while I love pigs and think piglets are adorable, I still don’t want a pig (the relationship being the pig, NOT the ex).

Campsite Rule

I’m a huge fan of Dan Savage’s Savage Lovecast. It’s a podcast that focuses on brutally honest love and sex advice. One of his maxim’s, that he refers to rather often, is the campsite rule:

“Always leave the person in as good of shape or better than you found them.”

Dan Savage

I am proud to say that I definitely think we did that. 

We won’t spend our time thinking about the last year as “wasted” because the relationship ultimately didn’t work out. Instead, I think we’ll spend our time figuring out what we want now and what to do next.

I can only speak for myself, but to me, it wasn’t a failure because we both grew leaps and bounds. I learned even more about myself than I have in years past, including what it is I want, and what I’m willing and not willing to compromise for a relationship.

Read “From Unhappy to Rediscovery: How My Life has Changed in a Year”. 

I learned I still struggle with temporarily losing myself to make a relationship work. Sometimes I still put myself last. I learned that I don’t want to be a nurturer right now.

It was a year of growth. I will always be thankful for it as he and I finally shut the book on a decade long on and off again romance.

We learned. We loved. We grew. And we decided to move on.

In case you were wondering, I did not write this personal blog post without his consent. In case you were also wondering, we are doing really well as friends and roommates at the moment. I promise we are both in a good place. I am grateful this time around we could be honest with each other. It was good for both of us.

Happy Valentine’s Day to all of you!  


Share your experiences with a good breakup in the comments below! 

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9 thoughts on “We Broke Up, and It’s Okay.”

  1. I love how you write. It is like I’m hearing a wise and calm voice telling how life works. That generalized idea of happiness that makes people sad and this bothers me A LOT. “Be with someone on valentines, be married by x age, be loved by others”… we forget that the most important thing in our lives is ourselves. And the most important love is self love. We need to love ourselves first to then know how to love anyone else. I’m happy to see that you’re both doing good. Wishing you a valentine’s day (and all other days) full of love!

    1. Thank you SO much, July <3 I can honestly say I have no idea how life works but these are things I'm learning piece by piece 🙂 It bothers me to though, a lot. I spend a lot of time thinking about it and thinking about how much unhappiness it causes. You nailed it-- we are the most important thing in our lives and if we don't show up for ourselves in all the ways that we expect external factors to show up for us, then we'll be waiting for a long time for that happiness we all look for! Thanks SO much for your thoughtful comment and I'm so glad to be connected! Happy VDAY and wishing you all the love on all the other days too!

  2. I love what you say about choosing our own version of happiness. We shouldn’t need to conform to what society ‘expects’. I truly believe that no experience is ever wasted, it sounds as though this is definitely the case here.

    1. 100%! It’s hard to not get caught up in the ideas we’ve been bred to believe will make us happy. We gotta do what makes us, as individuals, happy and the rest of the stuff will fall into place. Easier said than done as it’s pretty deeply ingrained sometimes but slow and steady 😉 Thanks for your lovely comment <3 <3

  3. this is so true. We have to learn to accept what we have and How we can make it work. And if it doesn’t work and….we don’t appreciate what we have/had, there is no need to waste time, energy and resources on trying to make it work.

  4. Hey Chloe, thank you for sharing your story. Me M and my F ex-Fiancé are doing what you two did. Even harder with Covid 19 though and we are kinda trappped in the in-laws house. However, I was wondering how did you two deal with living together and also possibly seeing other people? Or if you even decide to see other people. How to hand that? I can imagine whoever comes into our life will be not stoked about knowing we’re friends or roommates like in ur case? Thanks

    1. Hey! Honestly, we didn’t date other folks in the few months that we lived together after we broke up. It was way easier that way! If you guys can do that– it definitely makes things easier!

  5. I am so glad to have found this article. I’ve been scouring the internet for people writing about a break up I can relate too. Everything I googled came up with articles like “how to stay positive through a break up” and “10 ways to win a break up”. Etc. They were all wrote on the premise of heartbreak and despair, and how to possibly avoid feeling like someone’s just punched you in your frontal lobe.

    It’s so refreshing and brings me much comfort to read about a perspective similar to mine. You’ve validated feelings that I thought were almost too good to be true. We’ve broken up and it’s okay. (That was the phrase I typed in and that’s what led me to your article). We are getting on better than we have been for years. The pressure of constantly trying to make the shoe fit has subsided and the we can breathe again.

    We have a 1 year old daughter, living in the same house, planning on moving over seas as a family and we have broken up. And almost unbelievably it’s okay? It’s so funny explaining this to people, I’ve had friends waiting for tears, waiting for anger, waiting for rage. I just keep telling them, and because it is, it’s okay.

    Thank you, thank you, thank you.x

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