As someone who hops on a plane almost monthly or more these days, I tend to think I have this whole “travel” thing down pat.
I wait till the night before to pack, have my little travel sized bottles for my hair products, and never forget a charger. I’ve never missed a flight (knocking on wood right now), and always arrive at the airport with plenty of time to spare. I have my routine, and everything kind of falls into place.
It’s so dark you can’t see your hand in front of your eyes, or the lashes on your eyelids. It’s the kind of darkness that makes you see things that can’t really be there, like random shocks of red light, or an incomprehensible low throb of light pulsing in the edges of your vision.
It’s silent, but you can hear– hear isn’t the right word– you can loudly feel every movement inside your body– the crack of your spine, the pulse of your organs, the click of your fingers.
For my birthday last weekend, I pledged to myself that I’d do absolutely nothing all weekend in order to rest up, practice some self-care, and relax before three consecutive weeks of traveling.
It’s something I’ve always wanted to do for my birthday—sleep in until 10 am all weekend, eat a whole box of chocolates, drink champagne while reading some nonfiction, lounge on the deck, and order takeout while never changing out of my pajamas.
If you haven’t noticed by now, I do a lot of self-love/self-care/happiness experiments on myself.
There are so many resources and ideas out there—I have a hard time just picking one thing to try.
One such experiment, for lack of a better term, is dialectical behavioral therapy (DBT) that addresses the reasonable, emotional, and wise mind.
I’m weirdly vague with my resolutions this year.
I usually have specific goals, like do a Whole 30 (or 60), run a marathon, lose 27.8 pounds before my birthday, and read 52 books. This year feels different though, as I continue on my journey to treat myself with “loving kindness.”
I want to make goals, but at the same time I don’t want to make goals that don’t address the real changes I need to make.